Happy New Year

Happy New Year :)
I had a pretty good New Years Eve...with my family & our family friends. Very festive, very fun.
We celebrated at our house & then our friends slept over. Church in the morning. Brunch again at our house. Then we took the train to Kamakura & just enjoyed the Japanese festivities going on. The line to the temple was hellaa long so we just walked around & ate some japanese food...which i would come to vomit out later that evening. Not fun!
So around 9-11 pm I just kept throwing up.. & it was painful. So I figured it was just food poisoning but my mom & friend wanted me to go to the ER...so we did. So we were at the ER from 11-4 am. I ended up having to get a CT scan. So, not only did I have food poisoning, my intestine & stomach were inflammed. & My appendix is slight bigger than normal but not big enough to have to surgically remove it. So I spent majority of today in pain, in bed, & at the most discomfort I've ever felt. I'm sick of crackers, jello, & gatorade. I couldn't even watch TV until my headache went away. But I'm glad most of that is all over with. I'm still recovering but I'm not vomiting anymore.
I realized I'll be going back to Cali in 12 days? I'm kind of excited. Kind of not. I'm going to miss home again, & I don't even know if I'll be back in the summer time. My parents don't want to pay if I'll only be back for a little while. But I don't want to stay here the whole summer.
Anyway.
While sick and miserable there was no one I wanted to speak to more than the one person who was pretty much unavailable the whole day. It's okay I understand, it was New Year's Day back in states. I thought talking with him for even 10 minutes would have made me feel better but I'm pretty sure the little times I did catch him today add up to 10 minutes. It's okay though, you can't expect someone to be there for you all the time. It sucks but that is the truth of it right. It's just the time I really needed him the most.
I called up a good friend yesterday to greet Happy New Year...We used to be so fluid but now it feels awkward. It makes me sad when I think about all the friendships I have and how far we've come to drift. Maybe it is me? Maybe I'm not that great of a friend either. I don't know.
I feel lonely. Disappointed. Stupid. I'm just moody. I'm going to try and get some more rest.