fix that

I've got shit to fiiix
Kind of like new years resolutions except I probably need this for life.

- pay my bills on time! oh my gahd my dental bill. credit card bill.
- need to be more attentive to where I spend my money.
- do need to lose weight ahaha you'll find that on almost anyone's list.
- need be more on point about things & stop forgetting shit that ends up getting me in trouble (like locking the door..& feeding my dog.)
- realized I do need to sell my dog because I can't keep up with her around. Sad...but true.
-keep my shit straight (car!/room/school)
-stop smoking; shameful i know. I've made progress though.
-i know i should have something up here about my faith but i'm having a spiritual tantrum right now. let's hope He still loves me.

I kept waking up in the middle of the night. I've been doing that a lot lately. See, being home is good for the first two weeks then after that I start to get the stress that my parents have bottled up for 6 months that they don't see me. I've got the same old bullshit going on from them & it's not really worth writing about. I'm tired of it though & I really just want to be done with school so I can move far away from everyone. Sounds extreme but I'm really tired of it. Really tired. It's selfish I know. My mom said I should be thankful for having someone watch over me in the states...I'm 20 years old why would I be thankful for that. It's like telling me to be thankful I live in a fucking cage. So yeah, I did have an ice mint today.

I want to repaint the room when I get back to the states. Red is driving me crazy.