melts my heart to stone.

what am I doing? What am I doing?
I'm trying not to let my emotions get the best of me and have me explode.
So I'll just write it out.
So maybe it's not a wall, just a cage. A cage is at least somehow permeable. Slip through the spaces.
So you can let a little in but not all at once.
I don't know if it is me and I'm just being a girl reading into too many little things when I shouldn't.
Where's the honey.
Where's the sweet for sour.
This weather is killing me, metaphorically.
Melt my heart to stone-adele.
Song breaks me a little. It's not that I'm the only one in love but the feeling that I'm the only one feeling...somewhow?
Cause I love but not in love. Not yet.
Why can't it just be easy? Like it is supposed to be. Loving is supposed to be easy. But I feel so tricked.
I feel mislead. I believe, but I'm scared. . .
all over again.
My thoughts are in pieces...I know someone who can put them all together but I need to start learning my own.
Cause at the end of the day the only one that can mend me, is me. Right?
This is what happens when gravity pulls me down. This is me trying to reject gravity and hopelessly losing.
Knowing that at the end of the fall, I might just split open into pieces without the break.
Just...break this fall.
Catch.
Trust is hiding and I want it to come out and stay.