if you leave-musiq & mjb

i have a feeling this would be one of my songs.
so last night was pretty fun. despite getting my glasses broken..but they're fixed now so its all good.
i haven't been drunk in a while & it was greeeaat. dancing with the ladies...we had to keep migrating on the dance floor to avoid creepy random guys. i was dancing and waving my hand with the ring on my ring finger like it said something but i don't think it said much aside from the obvious (druuuunk). its fun to be drunk with good company :) i didn't want to leave. i said bye to everyone we passed in the club. drunk japanese people are really friendly..then we were talking down motomachi & i just kept saying how much love my boyfriend. ridiculous. damn fool huh...sleeping on the train ride home is always nice too. the only thing i hate about going out is reeking of cigarette smoke & alcohol & sweat. but coming home,passing out, then waking up to shower feels really goood.

i wish i could love being home without worrying. i wish i had a tougher shell. i know i talk like i do but that's only in hopes that i could verbally convince myself. but stripped i know i'm nothing but soft. compassionate. vulnerable. weak.

"these buildings could drift out to sea,some natural catastrophe..still there's no place i'd rather be...coz nothing even matters to me"
damn it, seriously.