i used to rule the world

not really but compared to now! the world is kicking my ass. okay, not really.
no, just when i think about it, my very first semester i think i was somewhat more responsible...in the sense of money, my weight, & school. i was very money conscientious..& now where am i at? an incredulous amount (for a girl who isn't working!) credit card debt. i lost weight my first semester; 10 pounds dropped without thoroughly realizing it until i bought new clothes & went home to japan summer 06...where am i at now? i'm pretty sure i gained most of it back! school i made straight A's...pretty much coz i had no life outside school then. now i'm just making sure i don't get any C's. I've already made two in the course of two semesters.
my dad's upset that i have a 3.2. i mean i'm not estatic about the gpa either but i'm not that upset about it.
i stress enough about too much other shit that i probably shouldn't be stressing about but i do anyway.
i need an outlet. a constant, reliable outlet. aside from writing.
& i need one that doesn't involve contaminating my body any more than it already is.
kickboxing was really good last semester...too bad i don't have time for it anymore.
there's so many things i wish i could have talked to him about but i want to keep it to myself so he doesn't have to deal with that part of me. i don't think anyone should have to. i just feel, bad.
okay, i have to write one of the stupidest, easiest, time consuming papers of my life....about yoga.
ugh. i swear i'm not getting an A in yoga either because of poor attendance thanks to oversleeping my alarm.
its the holidays; i think all i want for christmas is 1)not a broken heart 2)to have no negative inhibitions.
that'd be nice