untitled I.

this is like a pendulum swinging me from top to bottom to top again
constant rhythm of irregular motivations
isn't this supposed to be like heaven?
at least for a little more longer?
feel stuck in the middle of nowhere
without a map
no idea about the destination
so how the fuck are we going to find the way if you won't stop
& ask for directions?
two person team but i feel like i'm the only one playing
somedays
you're the mvp
you rack up the points
but honey you're flawed for you lack consistency
so i digress, what's a mvp without the persistance for consistent tendencies?
i try and pick up the slack
& try to convince myself maybe you've just become
handicapped?
but i'm still a fan
understanding maybe you're having a bad day, or two, or three
yet i still hope for the better man
with the better half of me.