today sucked.

today sucked.
for the most part.
i worked out early this morning only to end up more tired than i was.
i felt like shit. literally. & it was pretty obvious too, it wasn't like i tried to cover it up either. i just didn't give a fuck for some reason. felt pissy.
i had micro lab (i always dread micro lab) & successfully failed to determine whether or not i had a gram negative or gram positive so my teacher had to tell me. i have no idea why i kept getting gram variables but it was extremely irritating.then i went home because my contacts were sucking the life out of my eyes. went back to school. studied some anatomy & realized that i must be stupid to have trouble memorizing everything and hearing echoes in my head of students going "oh anatomy? its so easy!" i mean it is, just understanding where everything is but i'm very visual and mechanical learner. so it bugs me that today was the last day to view all the models and cadavers before next thursday, the exam day. like i'm going to remember it all! i'm such an idiot. then i forgot something at home so i had to drive back home, ended up late for lecture...hella traffic by the way and idiots on the highway need to turn off their motherfucking high beams! ughh.
my eyes were bugging me all day too. and i still felt like shit even if i tried to change, put on some makeup...it was sad. i think the only highlight of my day was dinner with the bf but he didn't have a good day either. we had pho (the downfall of eatting at pho places is that they are so mfcking RUDE?! seriously. go learn some manners before opening up a motherfckn restaurant).then came home to a pair of disappointed aunt & uncle...gahd i want OUT OF HERE SO BAD.
yeah. my day probably isn't that bad compared to kids looking for some clean water and for that i feel worse. i know it's stupid to be drowning in shallow waters but i don't care right now. oh on top of that my phone has been a bitch all day i swear i need a new one pretty bad.
i want to cry but i can't. my eyes are hella dry and itchy & i have no clue why. & i think i'm getting a sty in my right eye too.
i know, i bitch easily.